I think too deeply about everything. I still don't know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it.
— Mobeen Hakeem
Your now is not your forever
The far greater thing is what we are together 💖 // From “An Absolutely Remarkable Thing” by Hank Green @edwardspoonhands .
College students don’t want to go to graduation ceremonies, but they go to please their relatives, while relatives don’t want to go but go to support the students; we should all just be honest and skip that ceremony and go out for pizza.
I was beginning to learn that your life is a story told about you, not one that you tell.
Sometimes I wondered why she liked me or, at least, tolerated me. Why any of them did. Even I found myself annoying.
Your now is not your forever.
Love is both how you become a person, and why.
You think you’re the painter, but you’re the canvas.
Love should bring joy; it should grant a person peace, but here and now, it was bringing only pain.
Nicholas Sparks, Dear John
iseekthegreatperhaps
…the other day about my dislike of making decisions, and it was kind of hard for me to put into words why I really hate making decisions. It’s not that I don’t have an opinion (trust me, I do), but I guess I’m just used to my opinions or ideas not mattering to others. Where we go to dinner, whether we should go out or stay in, they’re simple decisions to make. I just never make them. By the time most of my friends ask my opinion, they already have their minds made up of what they’re wanting to do, so I just say that I don’t care. It’s just easier that way. I avoid conflict at all costs, and keep most people who know me at arm’s length so that most people never really know me. That probably says quite a bit about me. My two favorite movies are The Princess Diaries and Breakfast at Tiffany’s, and I’ve never really realized why until now. In The Princess Diaries the main character, Mia, spends the first half/two-thirds of the movie believing that her mission in life is to be compliant and invisible. She is weird, a nerd, and shy, therefore her classmates and some of her instructors believe her ideas and opinions don’t matter. Sound like someone? In Breakfast at Tiffany’s the main character, Holly, is a enigma. No one really knows her, how she operates, or what her thoughts are. Then, she meets Paul. As he begins to spend more time with her, he realizes just what Holly’s motivations are, and that she is as complicated and interesting as everyone else. She just feels the need to hide behind different personas, and never let anyone get too close, in case she gets hurt or people realize that she’s not as special as she lets on. I see parallels of this in my own life. It’s extremely rare for me to let someone into my inner life, and when I do I spend most of my time waiting to see how long it is until they leave. So, I end up surrounding myself with people who need me more than I need them. I guess my brain figures those kind of people won’t leave, but it’s so draining to be around those kind of people, I’m left exhausted and pissed off most of the time. I need to be better about surrounding myself with people who energize me, instead of those who bore me.
